I'll Be Gone

And now theres only mountain tops with a dim rustic glow,

I sit upon them looking out and down below.

I look to find a heaven yet nothing ever shows,

my burden gets no better with my thoughts that slowly grow.

I'm hoping to stay away from going down that lonely road,

but the thought alone excites me although I do not know,

what really happens at the end I fear my hopes

will soon outgrow the dreams I dreampt and when I find out lll be gone.

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Voice

Is it poetry when there is no rythm? Is it only when words create a perfect picture? Whatever it is its not only one particular reason cause without a doubt what I deliver always pictures a rythm and a beat a melody a serenade of sweet whispering. Divine, the words ripple from my mouth as I speak slowly pushing air out through the lungs I breathe, my breath is short from singing symphonies, notes they float around ur head raising from the ground. You connect, in that one instant you feel how powerful music is to your ears so bow down, be quiet, I'm singing here.


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Amazed

Drop your jaw and look up-you see that?
I will demolish all pavement you think u've laid-as a yellow brick road to walk through your heavenly gates.

Speak Slowly

This is me biting my tongue when I talk to you--
If you couldn't see the pain I felt holding back my words from vomiting truth, then let me express the significance of what my mind would like to spew.
After all, there's nothin else that I'd like from you--other than to listen and realize what I'm going through.
Must be ignorant to the senses I debut in my own words...there's much more pain, even less strewn,
so I sew along the lines of which you drew & watch the pain flow through.
Screwing up my veins still thinking I'm immune, but I still count down the days calculating time it will take to undo the facts that uve slained due to unfinished rage been shown through the days of all the sniff I blew.
Are you hurting in many ways? Seeking how to provide for you, how to be accepted by youth? Feeding off fame for a clue-- truth is your holding out on this moment, stuck in deja vu.
Saying this has happened, every night you dream its of the night before.
Keep on hoping time doesn't fade so your able to finally renew, trust in me cuz my ways of rolling continuously have changed my point of view, especially of you.
And as my thoughts accumulate my angle slices into ur deep sick desires of exactly why I hate you.

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Friends

Guess I'm just one of those people who cares a bit more about friendship. No trust, no love from me and I'm sure you'll regret it. But some minds think less than and forget when they had a chance to savor a friendship forever. Ha, but then they blew it, so I shut out and threw them, to the ground so clueless, thinking fuck why did I do this.
I'm so ashamed, but I refuse to play the game. To sit there and pretend our friendship still could be the same. It keeps me entertained to watch you turn the tables acting as ur queen, but honey this is my regime... I'm like the question when u dream, what was that memory again I'm talking through a screne, made from a script u wrote, 1st scene.
As u fene for me to give u just one glance of my gleam. Keep on swimming upstream u still have not learned one thing, and as I teach per diem u see how it may seem when all I'm needing is for u to redeem yourself and stop acting so supreme.

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Simple Man

A friend whose only beautiful in pretend
you access her heart while shes vulnerable to leave a dent
and I am 1 unusual decent of a simple man

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Let Me Pick Your Brain..

Let me pick your brain, while u stand their ashamed of what u see in the mirror
picking apart your appearance, that u fear, girl your mind has processed an illusion to appear
like its something not accepted by everyone around here.

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Being with you makes sense.

Illegitimately I love you with fingers crossed behind my back. When did we get here?

My expectations are hiding behind the compliments I give, hoping to reverse the reaction you get.

What made you ask me for more words from my breath? To leave the scars behind, just forgetting the past.

Intimidate me, foresee the equation, you plus me equals infinity. Lies and deceit framing the picture drawn by fidelity.
Incriminating facts hidden below the surface slowly rise creating the affair...
Again... in your mind, thinking of the love lost intertwined with one another.
As the other takes risks to possibly succeed. Succeed in the wrong way if he wants to betray that trust.
A trust of a brother can never be replaced & as you live in sin, you keep denying why it all had to end up like this. Imagination should create a fairytale ending not a made up display of wrongful affection.


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LaMe

Dont really understand how this all can change so quick, as of yesterday I felt as if I was making it, making something of myself given a chance to show my strength.
But then today 1 person made my whole hope go to shit.
Like are u an elephant in a stampede running with the giraffes that have their heads up in the trees. that was gay, let me start over, new scheme...
I mean how is that some big cat is making it in these scenes and I'm out here just running slow stuck in the same routine.
And not by any means am I planning to hold my ground, shit right now my blackberry already grew legs and walked the fuck out.
And I'm about to run out of this town, leaving everything i have now. smash my review mirror and never looking back so ciau!

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Listen girl, you're not the (L)only one.

Listen: When I dream, my mind splits in two separate ways.
The dream itself plants the idea so I play out the consequences.
Normally I wouldn't be so agitated on this note, but steppin back looking at myself has me wanting to revoke-my own attitude.
At times it may seem right, but when will me putting up a fight work out positive for the life im hopin for.
There's a fine line between selling urself out and selling yourself short.
If u could have a taste of my mind, stick ur finger in, lick it, now savor these last few lines.
You say, "Ur so lyrical, with ur spirituality," I'm actually about to crack and show you that my actions can speak accurately!
Do i sound a bit redundant? Has this been in your ears before hun, am i making you feel discontent?
Cause i swear that i represent the only being that i am, but maybe subconsciously im really hating who i am.
But back to what i said before i went out on this rant was, listen girl you just need to
love yourself again.

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Nothing on me.

In a minute everything that I've owned up to will be shot out the window--
not like its gonna matter if i said that it was my fault.
Might take a weight off their shoulders lifting em up to to my height,
I'm 5'3, so whats that say about their conscience or confidence?
All i know is they are definitely not my confidant.
Only considered an acquaintance to me cause their personality has a constant need for maintenance.
Been pushed down 2, 3 or 4 too many times.
Their all looking at me like I'm from another blood line.
Blood streaming down my upper lip, to my chin, till it hits the floor in front of my eyes.
A little abuse doesn't seem that wrong to me, but in another persons mind that could definitely shift their outlook on reality.
I'm writing down lists of the reasons why I'm still lyin, only trying to realize what the hell is my problem.
Still reaching to the skyline, with what i can offer still there's no one to see my side.
Cant wait for any of that shit to fall in my lap, im running just trying to see a fucking gap to where i can put my foot in.
Pressing each side out with the strength of both of my arms, what the fuck is talent anymore no ish is real.
Im talking back to CEOs just pushing to reveal....their lies, like who are you to tell me what is right and what is wrong. Cause ill be sittin higher than you in no telling how long.
Then who'll be pushing on those obstacles landin in the way, of dreams, all i know is they got nothing on me.

Say A Little Prayer For You

I would like to say a prayer for you to whisper my name into my ear & all i will hear are the words that you say. I will pray. That i may be so analytical that my thoughts send shivers up and down your spine.

Maiden Rose

Shes a maiden in her white dress waiting alone- upstairs in her attic, with her crystals and her pearls.
She sings a haunting tune " oh boy where did you go" , dreaming of a man she never wanted to know.
Sweet flowers in her hair, a diamond ring on her neck, placed in a glass vile was her sisters blood at rest.
She swore shed wear forever, never breaking their pact, "hold on maiden lula" , as her rose turned into black.
With a heart made of metal, turned every man to stone.
Her eyes held many secrets to which only her she told.

Evil

You wanted something new and enlightening,
but i have to apologize my words are transpiring evil.

My outlook is anything but on a positive level.

Electro Energy

In the night
I hear you calling me
I wait here to see & feel you next to me
& i find, the powers leavin me
It brings me to my knees
I need your energy, I need your energy
Don't wake me from this dream
I wanna feel no pain
I need your energy
Your the only thing in my mind
That keeps me sane
I need your energy

Unfinished

I don't owe you anything/ but your words are sinking in my head
I don't owe you anything/ times change but i stand for what i am
& i'm brave/even alone i survive
I will remain, a beauty in disguise

All that i see is the shadow beneath this wall
Just an illusion of what my mind made up
I'm a little out of reach, away from the sun

I'm Forgiven

It gets lonely in my mind_No one hears me cry.
My words are always read, but the meaning i intend does not get through.
My heart feels powerless, yet my pulse is a reflection that i'm living not dead.
& i wish what i meant would make sense.
This time i'm hopeless, why ignore it?
Losing more but standing tall.
embrace it & shake this funny feeling.
I'm Forgiven

Confront

Confrontation Spills my glory
So low, & yet not the only one who sees the disadvantage --
of falling on my knees when brutally battered.

Wish right now--

Wish my heart metal

Wish my eyes glued

Wish my mouth sewn

Wish my mind immune

I Got Stripes

I got stripes, stripes around my shoulders

I got chains, chains around my feet

When it was fresh.

Let us break free from these chains.

Don't follow, but go your own way.
Life is too short to blend in.
So let's break free from these chains,
of fear, hate & greed.

My Music Partner

Inspiration. Interpretation. Isolation

Maiden

Like always you knew before he ever came through
& like always you pursue a concept more than untrue.

Like always i knew i would never settle for you.

Like always we knew before you came through,
time was of the essence and i loved to discourage you.

She's so nice, naive, and beautiful--

"If you've been there, you know
If you're still there, hang on
We're all dealt our lumps of coal
What you do with it can turn beautiful

There's life outside of your madness
& there's a face behind every scar
But there's a love overflowing with gladness
Get out of that place that's restraining your love"

Plumb is an amazing artist:

I love her music & lyrics-so real.

Damaged.

Vent

My mind has a bad temper.
My thoughts pierce my flesh and make me ache.
My actions portray a prolongued silence.
My body has beaten me in.
It's a bold position to be in
Sealing my mouth shut to achieve something.
Lighting my thoughts up in flames, claiming i know nothing.
Unwritten rules to a game they all play
I'm losing the battle but recognizing a way
to keep silent but express a thin layer on display.
& evil penetrates
All born sinners who failed to create. Raise the stake.
I see it now in all different ways. Impossible to translate.
But go ahead recriminate.
Continue to procreate & desecrate then wait.
I'll save my traits locked away-find your own charm to relate.
But when you finally realize it's too late-
I'll be gone and so much further
Hurdled over your beliefs as you berate me.

Image Of A Girl

Girl in the mirror--
A reflection portraying an image with no soul.

Fist to glass, losing her hold.

Slipping into a story that may never be told.

A hole in the wall where she shares deep secrets with herself--

Because there is no one else.

Can you captivate her?

Read her words & feel her pain.

Spin in circles, doing cartwheels-

Singing just to put a smile on her face somehow.

Dreaming of falling off the edge--

But she still falls short.

I just want to dance today.

Your view.

You can see in a picture how the photographer sees its subject.

& you can feel the subjects emotion projected through the photographers work.

Creep

I'd like to dip my feet into an ocean of you.

Creep to the depths of your soul & touch every part of you.

Fill my veins with your pain; bite my tongue for you.

Dance on your shoulder whisper & sing i can feel you.

Holding in my hands a part of you.

Broken shell on the floor im inside of you.

I feel the heart beat that belongs to you.

Your aches have invaded my thoughts of you.

I am raging in ways i will show you.

My body is changing the sight of you.

Hold me tight; keep me close right beside you.

I told you i would never leave you.

I could die for you.

What's the point, if you hate & kill for love?

I hate the "beautiful" everyone wants to be; even me.
I hate the pointless conversation about nothing;
but i hate when they try to push conversation about something.
I hate myself for wanting to change;
but i hate myself for not being that way.
I hate sarcasm that is honest.
I hate truth that doesn't dare to take a chance to show more than what is obvious.
I hate how everything around here makes me think i hate me;
but i hate how i really hate to love me.

Did She Lose Control?

Did she fall to her knees--did she cup her hands around her face trying to breathe?

Do you see?

Are you still oblivious to all her feelings?

From a broken home to a stable dream--which you ripped from her porcelain hands to stain blood on her feet.

She tried, just like you told her to.

Listened to every word--put it in action--unfolded the truth.

What a theif.

Failed to recognize your power or acknoweledge her beliefs.

Took a dying breed and have gone on a killing spree.

Where did your heart go?

Maybe cause you dont feel vulnerable, anymore

You think you have power now--but i know its insecure.

Your turn to lose control.